There isn't anywhere else I can post it, but I would really like to have a serious discussion. I'm going through some serious problems with my girl, and I honestly don't know where else to turn. I guess it's kinda sad in a way that I'll trust complete strangers on the internet for advice more than my own friends, but my friends are jerks. We have an open relationship, and everything that accompanys it. I'm slowly starting to realize that I'm actually not okay with it, and perhaps that's whats pushing us apart. As much as I would love to fuck other women, I'm not really comfortable with her fucking other guys, but I don't know how to breach the subject with her. She's got quite the colored past with guys, and mine is even more colorful with women. I really don't know what to do anymore. Added to the shitpile is the fact that I'm starting to fucking hallucinate again, like completely sober, in daily life. I was walking alone the other night just to clear my head, and I saw this little indian spirit thing just standing in the bushes, watching me. I stopped, and said "I see you. I know you're there. Are you real?" It just looked at me, said "You are being watched", walked into the bushes, and disappeared. I don't know what to fucking do anymore, I'm scared I'm going off the deep end.